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[May. 16th, 2006|12:40 pm] |
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i'm dating jason now....i guess i am ok with it, i'm not sure. but he told me that he knows i have a lot of things on my mind....getting over that first love and other things, so it's all good! he keeps coming to p&c at the time that i am done, just to go to my house for like an hour or so and then drive all the way back to Horseheads after that!! i am not sure on how soon i will open up my heart and start loving again, it's gonna take time because i was hurt and i do not want to get hurt again!! but yea, my home girls, you all have to meet him and tell me what you think of him!! LOL......but one thing, he can't read, he's dyslexic. that's it, but its all good!! |
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[May. 4th, 2006|09:26 pm] |
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"DARK DAYS"
'Waiting, watching,staring
But for what or who
When the wind blows
Their souls stirring
Floating around
So you see
Why they die
It's their time to die
to go
Don't cry or be sad
Just think of all the good
Times you had'
A poem written by
BRENNAN D. LOVE
This will be the third anniversary of their deaths O:-)
FOREVER 16, FOREVER IN OUR HEARTS <3 SETH, KYLE and BRENNAN YOU ARE MISSED AND STILL LOVED BY ALL!!! O:-)
RIP BOYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! O:-)
(this poem was in the daily news 5/4/06)
5/4/03 O:-)
RAISING HELL IN HEAVEN!!!! |
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[Apr. 24th, 2006|08:31 pm] |
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i talked to bruce....i think its over for good. until he calls me back, then ill drop the bomber of what i think and feel...LOL....lets hope it goes somewhat like i planned...LOL...if not paul, crayons, spam and everyone else will be there for me!!! |
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[Apr. 24th, 2006|07:35 pm] |
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bruce called saying he has some of the money that he owes me.......but what about my dvds and whats he gonna do about the rest of the money he owes me?!?!?!...i didnt talk to him, i ignored his calls....i have to get the strength to call him back and be like this is what has to happen and yea! but what if he wants to try again?....i think paul wants to date, but i'm not sure, he sat there and talked with me about im calling and me ignoring it and everything! paul and i have been hanging out and talking more than usual lately...so its like all good right now and then the what ifs come in....what if *BRICE* does wanna get back together?!?!?!?! |
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[Apr. 21st, 2006|12:38 pm] |
i hung out with paul the other night. it was cool. he has his own place! haha, we went to the car wash and to walmart. we walked around walmart getting things for him to make me dinner with!! he made me steaks on the grill, not as good as what bruce made me, but it was ok. i need to teach that boy how to marinate things before grilling!! after i got back in my car, from washing it, i told paul that he should have washed it and he was like then i would be all wet and i was like my shirt only has some droplets on it!! LOL!!
i need to call back down to bruce's, to talk things over with him. hopefully that will happen soon, prolly not tho!
peace gotta get ahold of scott!! |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|02:18 pm] |
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Going out of my mind these days
Like I'm walking 'round in a haze
I can't think straight
I can't concentrate
And I need a shave
I go work and I look tired
The boss man says "Son, you're gonna get fired.
This ain't your style."
And behind my coffee cup
I just smile
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I'm in
Spending all my time with you
There's nothing else I'd rather do
What a sweet additiction that I'm caught up in
'Cause I can't get enough
Can't stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful, what a beautiful mess I'm in
This morning I put salt in my coffee
I put my shoes on the wrong feet
I'm losing my mind I swear
It might be the end of me
But I don't care
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I'm in
Spending all my time with you
There's nothing else I'd rather do
What a sweet additiction that I'm caught up in
'Cause I can't get enough
Can't stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful, what a beautiful mess I'm in
Is it your eyes?
Is it your smile?
All I know is that you're driving me wild
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I'm in
Spending all my time with you
There's nothing else I'd rather do
What a sweet additiction that I'm caught up in
'Cause I can't get enough
Can't stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful...
What a beautiful mess
What a beautiful mess I'm in
Spending all my time with you
There's nothing else I'd rather do
What a sweet additiction that I'm caught up in
'Cause I can't get enough
Can't stop the hunger for your love
What a beautiful, what a beautiful mess I'm in
i miss the way bruce sang this song to me....in his off pitch lovely voice!!!! i loved it when he sang songs to me!!! |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|10:34 am] |
"If I Lost It"~ Kenny Chesny
I had a hundred dollar ring in my hand
So weak and tired i could barely stand
From being up all night, prayin' she'd say yes
So with a hopeful heart i hit one knee
With a tear in her eye she looked at me
It was the moment of truth, i was scared to death
My life hung on what that tear meant
Then she smiled at me
And I lost it
No one can make me cry
Make me laugh
Make me smile
Or drive me mad like she does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse, one thing's for sure
It's real love and I don't know what I'd do
If I lost it
Well the honeymoon ended and life began
Jobs and bills, losing touch with friends
And that apartment got smaller every day
Then one night the walls finally closed in
I came home late, she said where've ya been
You used to call and tell me you're on your way
She said if this is how it's gonna be, then I quit
She walked out the door
I lost it
No one can make me cry
Make me laugh
Make me smile
Or drive me mad like she does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse, one thing's for sure
It's real love and I don't know what I'd do
If I lost it
I picked myself up off the floor
She walked back through the door
And we made love like it was the first time
No one can make me cry
Make me laugh
Make me smile
Or drive me mad like she does
It's like a curse that is the cure
Better or worse, one thing's for sure
It's real love and I don't know what I'd do
If I lost it
Oh, if I lost it
I don't wanna lose it |
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[Apr. 18th, 2006|10:49 pm] |
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RASCAL FLATTS LYRICS
"Words I Couldn't Say"
In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the mooon
There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away
What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it too late now
What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say |
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[Apr. 18th, 2006|10:26 pm] |
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so i talked to scott cody today...he got a job at the marina and he might need a ride home, so hes suppose to call me if he does...the i have no clue what we r doing!! maybe smokey-smoke....HAHAHA-ill die if i try that!! lets see here, i called paul, he never picked up, i left a message and he hasn't called back!!! but other than that nothing really happened tonight.. o wait that guy from wrights' beverage came in tonight and wanted me to pick something out for him to eat for dinner!!! hahaha, i was like umm, what r u in the mood for and he was like i don't know and i'm like, then how can i help you?!?!?! HAHAHA, i wonder why he wanted me to pick it out for him?!?!?!
why can't i stop thinking about *bruce*?......
RASCAL FLATTS
"What Hurts The Most"
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do
It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do
*our song comes on the radio and i keep thinking why did this have to happen to me, to us?!?!?!?!?
RASCAL FLATTS
"Bless The Broken Road"
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
I think about the years I spent just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true
Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
Now I'm just rolling home
Into my lover's arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you.
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[Apr. 18th, 2006|10:32 am] |
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"When She Calls Me Baby" Kenny Chesney
She'll call me honey
When she needs a helping hand
She might say darlin'
If she needs someone to understand
She'll call me sugar
If she's feelin' kinda sweet
She'll say that I'm crazy
Over my little jealousies
When she calls me baby
I just reach for the light
I'll hold her like a lady
Thank God she's all mine
With her arms around me
I can leave the world behind
When she calls me baby
I know what's on her mind
When this life has brought
me to my keees
She's got a way of bringin'
out the man in me
When she calls me baby
I just reach for the light
I'll hold her like a lady
Thank God she's all mine
With her arms around me
I can leave the world behind
When she calls me baby
I know what's on her mind
Oh, when she calls me baby
I know what's on her mind
"Tonight I Wanna Cry" Keith Urban
Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and me on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry
Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way
"Ring Of Fire" Johnny Cash
Love is a burning thing
and it makes a firery ring
bound by wild desire
I fell in to a ring of fire...
I fell in to a burning ring of fire
I went down,down,down
and the flames went higher.
And it burns,burns,burns
the ring of fire
the ring of fire.
The taste of love is sweet
when hearts like our's meet
I fell for you like a child
oh, but the fire went wild..
I fell in to a burning ring of fire.....[etc] |
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